Cunégonde

July 2005
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29 July 2005

 

Today was the official last day at my summer job. I spent it frantically finishing up memos and projects that I should have done earlier, shredding outdated files, getting a haircut, and trekking to two post offices to get a lovely prezzy: The Gift of Southern Cooking by Edna Lewis and Scott Peacock.

 

I got tickets for my next Canadian junket last night. Now I just need train and hotel reservations.

 

I’ve had to hide the cookbook in a drawer. Out-of-town friends are spending the weekend here, and I only have a few hours to turn a tornado-in-a-trailer-park Federal Disaster Zone/Superfund Site into  the apartment of a middle-aged, respectable and dignified homosexual bachelor.  Since I’m down to the wire, I’m going to have to put on my white nurse’s cap and do some triage: the disorderliness we can live with, the filth I must heal, and the no-longer salvageable tragedies.

 

Yes, your Cunégonde is still a bachelor. Guys in relationships keep hitting me on. Don’t ask me on a date without first telling me that you already have a boyfriend.

 

I forgot that it’s the Dore Alley Faire this Sunday. My guests are planning to go, but I think I might just stay home and make strawberry jam instead.

26 July 2005

 

What else I liked about Vancouver:

-         Few sirens

-         Almost no litter

-         Surprising a skunk on a quiet residential street as I walked back to my hotel one night (and I didn’t get sprayed)

-         Two-dollar coins

-         Chanterelles for about $7 a pound

-     Waking up to the sound of seagulls outside my hotel room

-         A sale at Zara

 

I’ve fallen behind at work. I’m sure that it has nothing to do with my leaving early on Friday and not showing up until 3 PM on Monday.

 

Someone has sent me a package—it’s waiting for me at the Embarcadero Station post office. What could it be?

25 July 2005

 

Last Thursday, at about 11 PM, I was on Travelocity, looking for a ticket to Montreal and New York and maybe Toronto. I didn’t find what I wanted, but I clicked on the link for Last Minute Deals.  And then maybe I clicked on the link for international travel this weekend, and that’s how I found a deal to Vancouver, leaving the next day. I couldn’t quite bring myself to go through with it (I even picked out a hotel). I went to bed – another of Carl's unrealized escape fantasies.

 

I told my workmates about the special fares at about 2:15 on Friday afternoon, and they wanted to see the other weekend deals on Travelocity. So I showed them. By about 2:30, I had somehow bought myself a ticket for a weekend in Vancouver, leaving at 6:38 that evening. I told the boss at 2:35 that I would be leaving for the day and wouldn’t be back until Monday afternoon.

 

I rushed home, packed, and had lots of drama trying to get the ticket sorted out with Travelocity (I never got the confirmatory e-mail). I ended up spending over an hour on the phone (mostly on hold), and a good portion of that with my land line on one ear, and my cell on the other (I called both 800 numbers), waiting, waiting, waiting for someone to sort out the matter.

 

Vancouver was great, as always. I stayed in a clean but seedy motel/flophouse near Yaletown. I had my morning coffee and egg muffin at the little café at the Opus Hotel each morning. My Vancouver friend was in town, so we hung out, went out, and I did a lot of cooking. Grilled leg of lamb with salsa verde on Saturday, and rib eye steaks and tomato salad on Sunday, with huge B.C. raspberries and blackberries to follow. We spent the day at the amazing Wreck Beach. I bought a dozen cupcakes at OK Cupcake on Denman. I did feel like the third wheel, or the fifth wheel, or the seventh wheel most of the time, because my friend and his weekend guest and their friends all had boyfriends to cuddle with on the couch, in the dance club, at the dinner table, on the beach, at the pub, in the car, on the sidewalk, and so forth. Plus they’re all rich and slim, so that rankled too. But the weather was great, and I needed the escape. I couldn’t believe that I was actually on a plane, heading out of the country, only about 4 hours after I had decided to go. Pictures to follow when I get them developed.

20 July 2005

 

Only seven more days of work to go. I’ve got a few projects to finish up and a few open cases to sort out. I’m starting to feel a little overwhelmed and overworked. No time for the gym tonight.

 

My “date” last night was really just an episode of hanging out together, but it was fun. We went to a great birthday beer ‘n’ bonfire at Ocean Beach. Lots of cute nice guys in down parkas. I met some friendly guys from a different social circle. And then the rangers came. It seems that alcohol, large gatherings, and bonfires are all forbidden. So no, for those of you who were wondering, I did not get drunk and fall into the ocean or into the fire. I did have a nice kiss, though.

 

I cooked tonight with my little pupil. We made a green bean, shell bean, and cherry tomato salad with a shalloty vinaigrette; skirt steak with a salsa verde; an onion and chard panade; and a strawberry-rhubarb crisp. The drummer from my little friend's band was in the neighborhood and came over. He didn’t want to eat our food, but we convinced him, and he left happy.

18 July 2005
 
Only one month until school starts. I can't believe it. Meanwhile, a few photos.

Vineyard meets redwood forest in Sonoma County
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The David Best Temple in Hayes Valley
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Looking up the spire of the temple
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17 July 2005

 

In backwards order:

 

I saw my new crush at the gym again today. S&P hair (in a good cut), furry chest, very nice back, not too lean, tan, a little taller than me, but about 15 pounds more muscular (just the way I like it). He had a long and thorough workout (back, biceps, abs, and lots of yoga stretches). He looked good in the shower.

 

I had a three-hour nap today instead of going to El Rio. 

 

I worked yesterday at the restaurant, grilling the lamb. I also had to do an unexpected amount of butchery: I spent the afternoon cleaning up six saddles  (the block of bone and muscle between the ribcage and the pelvis), trimming and boning out four legs (which then had to be stuffed and tied into eight roasts), and frenching twelve racks. That, plus carving all that lamb after I grilled it, left my right hand sore and tired. I’m no longer used to holding a knife for hours. I may have scared a little girl from a career in cooking. Her dad brought her into the kitchen, ostensibly because she liked to cook. I brought her over to the grill, which was roaring hot at that point, a little too hot for her to feel comfortable. She hid behind her dad when she felt the heat and saw the bank of glowing coals. I think you have to be something of a pyromaniac to be good at grilling over a live fire.

 

Farmers’ market report: charentais melon, mulberries (!), beef, pimentons de padron (small, hot, Spanish frying peppers), dahlias, dates, okra again, and a semolina Pullman loaf from della Fattoria Bakery.

 

I was going to spend Friday night quietly at home, but the chaste 23-year-old called while I was at the gym. He hadn’t left for L.A., as planned, and he wanted to see me. We went to Mecca for a drink (I wanted to stay out of the Castro, and he wanted something special to celebrate his last night in the city). Daddy bought him a drink (a frozen Bellini). He tried some of Daddy’s bourbon, but made a face and could barely swallow it. We then walked down to my neighborhood to see the temple in the new park. He’s alternately coy and flirtatious, declaring that he wanted to see me naked, but refusing even the most innocent of kisses. Latin drama. I sent him packing. He called me twice the next day while on the road to L.A.

15 July 2005

 

I hope I don’t just burst into tears later this morning when I write a $1,000.00 check to the VW dealer for “repairs” and the 60,000-mile tune-up.  Thank god for waterproof mascara. This is my first and last VW.

 

No big plans for the weekend. I’m cooking at the restaurant on Saturday.

 

The chaste 23-year-old calls me everyday. What could it mean?

 

 

14 Juillet 2005
 
Happy Bastille Day!
 
 

13 July 2005

 

Is Mercury almost retrograde or what? So many communication foul-ups this morning. Something important from a client never got forwarded to me; one e-mail server is not working; a co-worker quit and no one told me (so that's why she has been igorning my messages). I have asynchronous DSL, so it took a full 15 minutes to upload some crap. It’s after 10 AM and I still haven’t shown up at my internship. I’m hoping the peach and green tea popsicles I brought in yesterday earned me a little goodwill.

 

My chaste date was very nice. He’s very mature for a 23-year-old. I wish I had that kind of confidence when I was his age (or when I was 30 or 35). He’s a little sex phobic, so I gave him the lecture on generosity of body and spirit (short version: no one benefits from celibacy: not you, obviously, and not the people whom you’re denying the pleasure (however transient) of your caresses). I think he’s one of those prudes who’s worried that he’ll explode into frenzied sluttishness if he lets himself go. He can’t quite grasp the idea of moderation… Too bad he’s moving to L.A. on Friday.

 

Another cooking lesson tonight with my little straight friend. We’ll make some pasta and a little lamb ragú.

 

And someone put me in an okra state of mind, so I went to the Tuesday afternoon farmers' market at the Ferry Building and got me some. Only $3.00 a pound this time.

 

And I weigh now more than I ever have in my life. I jumped off the digital scale at the gym when it was hovering around 158.8 lbs. I didn't want it come to rest at 159. Jesus. Maybe I should go to the Lazy Bear Weekend up at the Russian River.

12 July 2005

 

Heat Wave!

 

A chaste date with a 23-year-old coming up.

 

Karl Rove in hot water! Treason! Scotty McClellan in Full Retreat! Will Chimpy stay true to his word and fire Rove? Was Rove the one who got the security clearance for Jeff Gannon/James Guckert (the gay hooker who posed as a stooge reporter in the White House press corps)? Stay tuned. It could be an interesting summer.

 

The London bombings: so much for the right-wing theory that the occupation of Iraq will keep the terrorists from attacking the Coalition of the Willing (as if that ever made sense in the first place) "Bring It On!" as Our Leader used to say, or was that "Mission Accomplished"?

 

The White House is going to pull some stunt in the next day or so, announcing the “capture” of another “high-level” Al Queda operative or some bogus terror warning to distract us.

11 July 2005

 

I went to Elk Grove on Thursday evening to meet my new niece. I forgot how tiny newborns are. Her little brother (age one and a half) is suffering paroxysms of jealousy. When I was holding her on Saturday, I said, “look, look, she’s smiling at me!” My mother walked by, without even looking, and said, “Honey, she’s not smiling at you, she’s just passing gas.”  That's my Mom. My whole family came up to assist and marvel. There were several contenders for the title of Shameless Baby Hog. “My turn! My turn! I want to hold her!”

 

I saw what I think was the famous Chad at El Rio on Sunday. I was too shy to introduce myself, and I was with a friend who doesn’t know (and doesn't need to know) about Cunégonde. . .

 

I’ve been reading a lot. My sister has tons of books I would never buy but enjoy reading. While I was in Elk Grove I reverted to my childhood pattern of burying myself in books (self-protection; no wonder I’m an Enneagram Type 5). I read Harriet the Spy on Friday and Running in Heels on Saturday.

 

And a note to Kaiser Patients: If you really, really need your meds, don’t rely on the mail-order refill system.

8 July 2005
 
5:20 PM: I have a niece! I'm going up to meet her as soon as I can pack my bags, fix my mailbox, and tie-up a few loose ends at work.
 
9:15 AM: My little sister is having a baby today, so I might be out of touch for a few days.
 
--Uncle Carl

5 July 2005

 

A long but good weekend. No touching to report, alas. I’m expecting a monsignor to arrive in a black town car any moment bearing a heavy gilt & cream envelope enclosing my Certificate of Secondary Virginity from the Vatican.

 

I spent Saturday and Sunday nights up at the home of a friend outside of Occidental in Sonoma County. We ate well (I did most of the cooking). We went down to Guerneville to see the Gays and hang out with friends on the dock of the Willows.  

 

More to follow. I’m supposed to be at work in five minutes, but I haven’t showered, shaved, or dressed, or paid the bills (Rent? Does that word mean anything to you?)

1 July 2005

 

Happy Canada Day to our dear readers and neighbors to the north!

 

My straight crush came over last night for another cooking lesson. We made poulet au vinaigre (brown the chicken, add vinegar, tomato, and a little chicken stock; simmer; when the chicken is done, remove it from the pan and reduce the sauce, if necessary; strain the sauce; and whisk in a little butter (off heat)), and a Richard Olney zucchini gratin (the one with rice, breadcrumbs, milk, gruyère, and eggs). For dessert, sliced strawberries in red wine. It was lovely.

 

Sonoma this weekend — I can’t wait.

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